Last two days I was in total devastated state, not knowing why everything happened all of a sudden. Perhaps my "good friend" came and make all these such a mess. I need to control my feelings. I have been saying this quite a number of times now but sometimes I cant control my tears. I know you hate to see me crying all the time especially you said that I've cried 5 times in 12 hours pierced my heart. I hope you can understand that I can't help but to cry and I really don't know why. I want to run away and cry and wipe away those tears to face the world with a drawn smile. Everything will be over I believe it will. So, God let this all pass and allow me to stand strong again in my ever so blessed life. I might be over demanding at times however I promise, really do promise I can make it right again. Since my "good friend" finally went for her monthly holiday so I can relax and chill in a good mood like my normal self. Sorry for all my beloved friends out there if I ever hurt your feelings but I don't meant that much and I don't really hate anyone actually anyway.
